Boy, you struck a cord and a nerve. I have not read your life story yet, but just in your comment you revealed a lot.
My wife and I Regular Pioneered for some total of 40 years. When we hit 50, the Convention in 2010 about the "Over Lapping Flipping Over Lapping plus Over Lapping Generation" change, threw me for a loop. I looked at my wife and said; "The Organization has no clue when the End is Coming"!
We came off the Pioneer List and both got fulltime jobs in our local education system(because they have the best medical insurance and retirement benefits). The work is not that physical and if we make for 15 years(65 years old), we will collect a total of $1200 (combined) from the school system and will have insurance to supplement Medicare, in addition to our SSI check of approx. $1500 for a total of $2700 until we die.
Thank you Watchtower for waking us up while we still have a little "Life" in us!!!!